Thursday, 31 January 2008

i saw the light..


I would like to share this with you. It did open my heart and I hope yours will too. I’ve been fasting every Monday and Thursday since the first day of Muharram. Initially the reasons were to cut down cigarettes, to hack down my unwanted fats and sort-of CTRL+ALT+DEL my body system. Then I thought, hey it’s a holy month, plus InsyaAllah I might get some perk from it, so now, on those days, I’ll wake up for bersahur and breakfast after Maghrib.

Last Monday, unlike any other days, I woke up late and missed bersahur. Luckily I berniat before went to sleep. I was so late that I need only 10 minutes of shower and 10 minutes to drive to the office before Pak Guard closes the gate and jot down names of the late comers (macam sekolah kan?). While showering, there was a battle in my head-to solat Subuh (qada’) first? or just “Speedy Gonzalez” to the office. Alhamdulillah, I did Subuh first.

That whole day I tell you, I felt like my rezeki fell from the sky and hit right at me! Everything was so smooth sailing!

  1. Firstly, that day I went out from the house with an empty wallet. While anxiously waiting to cross the main road, out of the blue my neighbour stopped his motorcycle and paid me RM 5 he owed me sometime ago! Alhamdulillah.
  2. Miraculously despite the long wait to cross the main road, stopped by the neighbour and the whole delay thing from the house, I managed to be in the office on time! Alhamdulillah!
  3. I was quite groggy that morning because of the running and stuff, plus the night before I didn’t have a solid dinner. It was like Lars Ulrich playing double pedals in my stomach. But after 10 am, I was back on my feet! Fresh and energetic! Able to maintain that condition until evening! Alhamdulillah.
  4. Planned to stop by at the ATM machine and buy some groceries so that I can cook my berbuka meal but on my way out from the office, there were some leftover lauk from an earlier meeting, and my friend told me to take it home. Alhamdulillah, another rezeki! I didn’t have to waste my time to the ATM, shopping and most importantly I didn’t have to cook. Lagi best, the food was enough to feed me for two days! So I got home early, fully rested. While waiting for Maghrib, caught a sitcom on tv and had enough time for my microwave to “ting!”.

Well you can call it a coincidence, but whatever it is, I felt so blessed that day and I think the decision of solat Subuh somehow/maybe have to do with it..Wallahualam..

Baiklah anak-anak, apa yang telah dipelajari oleh Sharel melalui pengalaman beliau tersebut?

  1. Jangan tinggal sembahyang.
  2. Always put Allah ahead of everything.
  3. Everything happens for a reason and at Allah’s will. So play it cool and beristighfar.
  4. Ttraining myself now to recite Bismillahirrahmanirrahim before doing any activities for example pakai baju, going out, goreng pisang etc. I know there is a doa for each and everything, but for starters, I guess this is a simpler and the easiest way to remember Allah at all times.
  5. And I’m trying hard to solat on time. Tak baik melengah-lengahkan sembahyang..

I’m feeling so good about myself right now! Not that I hadn’t, but just better!

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, kuatkanlah iman hamba mu ini supaya dapat ku kerjakan tanggungjawabku terhadap mu dan ampunilah dosa-dosa ku, dosa keluarga ku serta dosa seluruh umat Islam. Sesungguhnya kaulah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Amiiiiin…

Al Fatihah buat Allahyarham Dato' Ishak Baharom (bekas mufti Selangor) dan Allahyarham Rosli Khamis (lyricist and composer) semoga mereka di tempatkan di kalangan mereka yang beriman. Amiiiin.

2 comments:

AM said...

to say that I love this entry would be an understatement. tapi itu je yang gua terfikir nak kata. I love this entry!

sharel said...

ay thanks!